Suspense

Long story short. Lots has happened these last few weeks.

I was sitting down stairs on my bed. Cant remember what exactly I was doing. oldest daughter was in the bed and youngest daughter and her cousin had been upstairs playing the Wii.

Youngest daughter came in the room and said her aunty is coming. How she said it and how she looked caused me a sliver of concern, but honestly I was just like, uh what now in anticipation of her arrival.

So she gets to the door and knocks.

Yes I say.

She opens the door and she has a handful of knives in her hand.

‘Can you help me?’

First off, I wasn’t sure what was going on, what am I seeing?

So I immediately knew she was referring to harming herself….I reached and grabbed for the knives and took them away and then led her towards the stairs.

She continued to say, ‘Why won’t you help me?’ Then at one point said, ‘I’m going to ask …..’

I failed to see it all this time being my focus was on the knives, but I finally noticed she had a wine cooler in her hand. So as I’m leading her upstairs I try to take it. She starts screaming, ‘NOOOOOO!!” Insert eye roll. I was really annoyed. Especially because I’m like I realize how scary it must look from the kids perspective.

So we finally get to the top of the stairs. She makes a move to go back towards the kitchen because she said something like, ok you wont help me. I said um no go to your room. I try to take the bottle again, she screams again and falls on the floor. I smh.

My mom comes out the room. I’m assuming because she’s on the floor she probably thinks I pushed her or something! LOL!

I briefly explain what happened.

She came downstairs I’m bringing her to her room. basically they end up in there talking. Not sure what happened with that.

Something I didn’t realize is we don’t discuss nothing. Why? I have no idea. Because of it though I am noticing I am starting to resent my sister more. And it’s not even her fault.

Second thing, that number I mentioned earlier from a different day was the guy. I thought it was, but honestly wasn’t 100%.

I notice I do not have the same butterfly feelings like I used to.

I’m not interested in romantic relationships. Whoever wants me is going to have to work REALLY hard to change my mind to not be single anymore.