Confusion

Fast is over. Ended Sunday.

Lord I’m struggling. I feel as if I’ve messed up yet again with my decisions.

I’m finding that I’m still trying to find myself. Sometimes I feel lost. Not doing enough. Broken. Hurt. Upset. Selfish. Tired. Ready to just give up.

I know it’s a sign of weakness and I’ve sown within myself that can’t be me.

…I can’t rest. I can’t relax. I’m being lazy..these are the thoughts swirling around my brain.

Help me Lord.

I’m learning as usual when someone isn’t fairing as well as I, to be thankful in spite of. I can honestly say I am thankful. I love and enjoy where I am.

The only thing I am unsure of I pray that Lord you guide me. You know my hearts cry. You know my heart now regarding the situation.

Little things like what I’ve just witnessed warm my heart and brings smiles to my face. My nephew teaching and caring for his little sister. Previously reading to her as well. No arguing. No bickering.

Thank you Lord anyhow.

I thought and believed so bad I was supposed to be with so many. I got wrong before.

….just pray….

Help me Lord. Nothing makes sense.

I trust you.

Love always.