New Mindset

It’s a new year! The theme for this year is ‘Increase and Restoration’! I’m believing for exactly that this year. Except for a few weeks in December, I was able to solely work from home. I was sewing insides for the company my sister has been working for. It was kinda funny because after a no, her boss agreed, and when I got the machine I was to use, it had the last four of my social. Lol. Kinda funny.

Anyway, today is officially his birthday. He is 2. He came back from a 2 week break yesterday. It’s funny watching him. I’m just glad I don’t have to work 12 hours too!

Money is good, but my health is more important. I thank God He allows me the ability to work and be consistently at home. I pray my ears are open to any other business opportunity that is available to me. I want options when it comes to that.

Money can definitely provide the ability to be able to simply do.

Do more than not.

Speaking of money, I went to Clear Choice last week Friday. Overall amazing results and procedure. It’s going to cost $36,000 dollars!!! Oh my goodness….for TEETH?! Not really sure what to do at this point, but I’m glad I was able to go.

I’ve learned my value. For the first time I really believe we had a sort of break through talk. Me and the guy. I explained to him that I was unwilling to settle for less than what I felt I deserved in a relationship. Especially with everything I bring to one. I’m not perfect, oh no definitely not that, but I know what I bring to the table and I need the same.

I can understand not wanting to get hurt or not wanting to get your hopes up to prevent being hurt, but it really makes no sense when you are trying to hold on to someone who wants nothing to do with something like that, relationship wise. I keep reminding him in different ways, that, no, we are not together and I won’t pretend to be.

The fast of course with the church started on the 4th. 5am - 5pm. At first I was only eating certain foods, but after talking to God, I felt it was best and more of a sacrifice to put away food altogether. I was able to drink coffee the regular way, but after yesterday, today I won’t eat or have coffee.

I’ve been loving me some of both of those things and I think it best to sacrifice.

Amazingly I think it’s better for me.

Today the guy told me that he’d pay me back with interest basically for letting him borrow a few dollars. I just found out he was in California! Had no clue. Not sure the accuracy but he said it had been almost 4 months. I figured he’d be out there a lot because of his mom but didn’t think that.

He text me…on my birthday…to tell me his mom passed away the previous Saturday. I saw his name and thought…oh my goodness he remembered my birthday! Then I thought it rude to bring it up and that after he’d acknowledge it.

He didn’t.

I’m really ok with the fact that we aren’t together. I can’t deal with the lack of communication and lack of accountability. The lack of a lot of different things that I think are the nucleus to any successful relationship.

Why would I submit myself to someone who won’t be 100%. What is ‘well I may or may not be messing around’.

What the…..serious eye roll lol…

What I got requires a lot more than that.

On another note.

Including student loans, credit cards, etc. I have little less than $20,000 in debt. Of course I still owe my mom which I think is $7000?

Thank you Lord for helping me figure all this out and move forward in everything that has my name on it.

No more debt.

Blessed to be a blessing.

New mindset. New life.