Decisions

Monday was a day that seemed to engulf me with emotions. Dealing with issues I feel should be long gone caused me to cry out to God in complete surrender.

I believe being honest with God and not being perceived as unappreciative or anything other than truthful dialogue was refreshing.

I left around 730pm to grab a few things from Walmart. Was really nothing. Didn’t have sugar.

Nothing.

After being told Sunday when we arrived in the sanctuary that we needed to discuss some things I felt things would go back to normal. Previous to this I brushed off the lack of it to hormones as I knew her period had either started or was about to .

Then being that I was unable to contribute to the rent, I understood the possible annoyance whether it existed or not.

So after I returned home, I made kids a sandwich and started to finish the last of the insides. I had 17 total. As I’m doing the up and down lines on the 3rd one, the needle and another component broke.

Tried to fix it. Didn’t know what to do.

Later I check Yahoo and noticed a babysitting job from Single Moms. Every opportunity I know I can’t do, so I’m waiting for confirmation it’s what I should do.

Will be long hours with a 2 year old and $100 a week.

I have bills coming due. My account is overdrawn. In need of a car. A job. And figuring out where we will live when the lease is up.

Commence internal screaming!

Thank you Lord.