I’m a Fool

So it’s been almost 2 months since I’ve talked to the guy. Will never forget. It was his sons birthday. I made a 3D football cake.

A few hours after he came by to pick it up I was browsing around on Facebook. I was trying to see if his mom liked the cake. Something! That somebody liked it. I figured one of them may have gotten a picture and posted it.

Somehow I ended up on a post that I saw where a female claimed the man I had kissed and hugged not 3 hours earlier.

The post of course was old, but then I saw her profile picture. It was him and her at a restaurant, him leaning in to kiss her. They looked comfortable and happy.

Immediately my thoughts flew. My heart raced and I literally started shaking.

I felt like a big fool.

Sometimes even still. I still care about him and what’s going on. I pray for him and his family and wish them the best. I know I have a relationship with Him so I know our meeting wasn’t all good, but good can be worked out of it.

I think the frustrating point for me is knowing whether he really cared or not.

Actions overall may say otherwise. Why would I try to gauge a relationship with someone for that long.

2 years?

I know it’s not his fault. I let him treat me any kind of way and that’s what I got.

Unfortunately, I don’t think I handled it well. I knew I couldn’t call. I’d spit anger and cry from frustration. Only way we talk again is if he decides, if he actually kept it, to call or text me.

I told him to delete my number. Last thing I said.

Or come over, Don’t think he will though.

Doesn’t seem the type.