Chop Chop

I cut my hair.

Well, not all of it. The other day my sister bought some cheap clippers so we could do the boys hair. It was looking something awful. She cut her sons hair and I cut my sons. As I started to think about it, I began to see myself cutting some of my hair off.

I want to stay natural of course.

I needed something different. Something I can maintain since I don’t maintain my hair well enough already! Why not cut some off!

You know whats interesting? So, since Sept 8th I haven’t spoken to the guy. The other night I had been thinking about him like I do a lot and then noticed he had text me.

That text was 2 days ago.

Normally, I’d be jumping all on that and writing him back. I just felt empty. Thinking about what I want and what he wants. It’s not the same. I realized I want so much more than he’s willing to give. I falsely advertised myself into being this woman who didn’t care if a man was separated, yet technically still married. Who cared more about someone else even if it went against what I wanted. That it takes no effort to be with me or please me, therefore anything goes.

I blame that all on me. I never spoke up. I didn’t stick to my guns. How I feel now? My eyes have been opened in a new way. Years of unknowing have been brought to light. So much has changed with me.

Thank you Lord for helping me and continuing to help me get it right.