So Stupid

Right now I’m here.

Frustrated with love.

I started reading a previous book I finished years ago. It’s called Upon this Rock.

I am so stupid. I’ve said it many times before for this very same reason. And for what?

Stupid.

Nothing added up. Nothing made me feel like I should and yet I’m remembering all those times I’ve given myself away.

Given part of me away. To what avail?

Absolutely nothing.

Nothing.

To know that I was and did give something so precious away for something so cheap.

Broken promises. Lack of communication. Selfishness. No respect.

I do not owe you my heart when you do not have the keys to unlock it.

Really sad. Crying over spilled milk.

…he heals the brokenhearted…

Lord if I can help one person not make these same mistakes and feel how I’m feeling…please show me how.