Off Track

I hate not knowing what to do. I hate overthinking. I hate not having all the answers.

I hate that my mind wont just sit still.

I hate not trying to be hurt. But I am.

Still having feelings. That I do.

Still missing someone I’m not even sure misses me.

I hate it. I hate it. I hate it!

In almost 3 years I will be 40. I feel like I am so behind in life. I’m naive in areas where my peers and even people younger than me seem to excel or at least understand.

Spiritually I know it’s there, but I know there’s more to this life.

What am I here on this earth for?

What is my God given purpose?